God's Contradiction

I quote this from a thread on Facebook debating about the existence of God.

You fool. Oh, and I'm allowed to call you a fool, but you aren't allowed to insult me:
“whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire."(Matt 5.22)

Although interestingly Jesus wasn't much good at following his own rule:

"Ye fools and blind..."(Matt 23.17)”

I had a good laugh.

Schooling - Local & Overseas

Have you ever wonder how life will be, if you had taken that step? That step that might just lead to the better and had every other chance for the worst? Life is full of what-if's. And a little what-if question just resurfaced on my mind, the question I had asked myself five years ago.

What if I had been smart enough and got awarded the ASEAN scholarship when I was in Standard 6? How would my life in Singapore be? Will I fit in? Will I be happier? Will I still be discriminated like I've always been all my primary school life?

If only I had put in more effort than no effort that year, if only I knew how important that scholarship was to me when I was 12 years old, if only I felt the love I felt towards that country since I first set foot there last year...

If only...

Yes, I'm still emo about that sad memory until now.

Then again, I would miss loads of events happening in my family, in Malaysia (no, it ain't bout the love for my country).

1. I would miss the birth of my 3rd and 4th uncle's first child. And second. And third.

2. I would miss the quick-paced progress of my mother's career.

3. I would miss my chickens.

4. I would never have met my goodie goodie good genius friends.

5. You might not be reading this now.

6. I would be asking "What if I DIDN'T get the scholarship?"

7. I would be facing a huge risk of being sent back to Malaysia due to my hollow skull.

8. I might get too stressed mentally and socially and then commit suicide.

9. I would declare the 8th point as untrue because I LOVE MYSELF TOO MUCH :)

10. I would die of starvation. (Singapore's food price too expensive larrr T.T)

I would say that it's fated for me to stay in Malaysia and then die due to SPM stress, but since I still don't believe in God because you haven't gave me a scientifically logical reason on His existence, so I guess I'll just say that I want to give myself more time to prepare to become independant because I really might die due to immaturity *self-consoling*.

Enough about dying! I'm making it seem like I'd die either way -_-

PS: I actually started using hair conditioner today. My hair turned so smooth immediately, I swear if I was Rapunzel, Prince Charming would slip off. And fall. And die. Bwahahaha!

~ Angelina

Of Killer Bad Moods

Bad moods suck. Like, totally. They make you don't feel like doing anything at all, with the stupid throb in your heart, and the urge to bite the head of the next person who asks you to do something.

On top of that, I especially DESPISE people who love adding fire to my boiling kerosene. People who act like a fucking idiot, making you sound stupid just because you didn't realise that you made a typo. Example:

Me: I really hate i because you're dumb.
Fucking idiot: HUH? You really hate yourself because I'm dumb? O_O!?!!!1!?!11!!

Seriously, you goddamn know that that's a typo, because for one, it doesn't sound AT ALL right, and two, for a person who knows how to use a chat program, you clearly KNOW that the letters "U" and "I" are together. So shut up, and don't bother to ask that idiotic question, and especially avoid the usage of that idiotic emoticon at the wrong time, and cut the extra exclamation marks, question marks and number ones, FOR THE SAKE OF SANITY.

Some people really can drive me up the wall. Why do they have to type like, 2 words per chat, pressing enter and try to crash your WLM.

n00b: uhm
n00b: u noe
n00b: like
n00b: totally
n00b: i mean TOTALLY
n00b: awesome!
n00b: haha
n00b: xD

And by the time you click their window to reply them, you'd have to waste like 1 minute and 2 seconds to scroll up, then down, and try to piece together that stupid puzzle, and finally with your brilliant minds, figure out what are they trying to say.

And I don't get how some people, can go on and on about how much they hate their aunts, about how pathetic their lives are, about how their friend's brother's cousin's mother's father's grandson's friend's sister's uncle's niece thinks that her brother's friend's mother's brother's son's uncle's nephew's brother's cousin's friend like them. I mean, I don't even know your friend's brother's cousin's mother's father's grandson's friend's sister's uncle's niece, what more anything about her brother's friend's mother's brother's son's uncle's nephew's brother's cousin's friend. WHAT THE HELL MAKES YOU THINK I WANT TO LISTEN TO THAT PURE CRAP?

And another laughable thing is, I occasionally have random people adding me in messenger. So of course, I wouldn't know who that random person is, and my first question would most probably be questioning their identity.

Me: Who are you?
Random person: Mary's cousin.
Me: Oh, I'm Jolene's friend. Also, I'm Julie's daughter, Derrick's niece, Jia Xuan's cousin and the daughter of the daughter of my grandmother.

Totally speechless.


Don't you just love to hate PMS.

~ Angelina

Media - The Cause of Controversy?

The media is a very influential thing. Everyone almost believes everything on the papers and the news without further questioning.

China, for example, is pictured as a heartless country who refuses to present Tibet its independence and the media is somehow, in a way, trying to gather more "anti-China" and "free Tibet" campaigns to feed the world with more "hot news". The world, on the other hand, is trying to boycott China and its Olympic event this coming August because obviously, they're all intimidated by China's sudden rise in the world's economic.

And SOME people in this world, who knows only a handful, happened to take a glance at how evil China is as projected by the media and uses the recent earthquake tragedy in China to open their big mouth and shout how much the Chinese deserved it. I wonder how is it possible that the world can give birth to geniuses like Einstein and damn idiots like these half bottle fulls.

I call this kind of people "a half bottle full" for a reason. Take a bottle, fill it with water until its brink and close it tight. Now shake it. Do you hear any noise? No? Now pour the water until there is about a quarter left. Close the opening and shake it again. Is it noisy? The water represents knowledge and the noise represents a persons' mouth. The wise will know how to keep their mouth shut, the illiterates will have nothing to say. But take an idiot and feed him a spoonful of information and there he goes, bragging about that little information as if he discovered e=mc². As an English saying goes, "A wise man never knows all, but a fool knows everything."

~ Angelina

Inked

True. I have lost interest in blogging. But I started writing stories :D

For those who are interested, please hop on to my other blog for some literacy fun.

~ Angelina

Height Issues

I ain't happy with my height. Blame the genes. Or maybe my pituitary gland got clogged. Whatever it is, I'm gonna keep on ranting bout my height. And don't try to tell me to be happy with what God gave me. Don't tell me you're perfectly fine with your looks. Maybe you'd choose to have more volumed hair, maybe it's your eyelids, maybe it's that brow which wouldn't grow the way you want it. Or that tooth that sticks out so obvious that you dare not show your teeth when you smile. Is your nose a little too flat? Got low cheekbones? If you're given a chance, I'm sure you would change something about your looks. You aren't happy with your looks, I know it. I'm not happy with mine either. Maybe you want bigger eyes, maybe you want a better-looking jawline. Dimples too perhaps. For me, I want to grow taller.

At 154cm, trust me, the world isn't a pleasant sight.

"Look! There it is! On top of the mountain!"
"See what? The mountain is bald."
"You blind is it? So big on top there also cannot see."

My mum is short, about my height. And from what I heard, my biological father is short too. Thus, I was born short. And I reached puberty at like, 10 years old?! Reaching puberty at such a young age made me taller than the others in my primary school days. Yes, those were the oh-so-pleasant days. The days when I could happily walk to the back of the row when teacher asks us to line up. The days I could reach shelves which others couldn't. Ah, the sweet memories.

Don't tell me to look a bright side of this, cause there ain't a bright side. Don't tell me that at least I won't be taller than my boyfriend. I see nothing bright in that. Nor the fact that I could fit in the kawaii children's clothes. And the worst of the "bright sides" is telling my that I'd look cuter if I'm short. Cause I know the truth - I don't.

Also - I DON'T BELIEVE THAT JUMPING HELPS. My mum asks me to jump everyday, which I don't. Logically speaking, if an overweight girl like me were to jump up and land down with like 50kg of fats, don't you think the pressure alone with make the legs shorter? Don't try and intimidate me with your Biology theories, I'll shoot you back with the logical Physics theories I made up.

And that teacher. That teacher who couldn't hold her tongue for like one minute. After like a whole load of elaboration in front of the class, all she could say to me was, "You know, I just realised that you're this short." Fuck you, whether you meant it or not. You think you're so tall is it? Think before you ever say anything, can? I know my genes suck and I have miniature cells. I also know you have gigantic cells so huge that you are a unicellular organism that looks taller than me.

- End of rant -

By the way, I've just started some stretching exercises today. Wish me luck. If it doesn't work, I should just go live with the seven dwarfs in Snow White. Then maybe the prince in the story will go, "OMFG A CHINESE IN A FAIRYTALE?!" Then he'll marry me. And we'll live happily ever after.

P.S.: Sorry, Snow White.

~ Angelina

Tagged, I'm it!

Tagged by my classmate, Wei Ting.

INSTRUCTIONS: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
Mummy! And my friends too :)

2. What do you feel like doing now?
Study.

3. What can you describe your life?
School life sucks pretty much. Can't wait for college. Home life? Heaven.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Egypt. I wanna see the pyramids and the mummies!

5. If you could have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
I wish that my dream of everyone living happily - no stress, no sadness, no grief; just plain happiness would come true.

6. Do you believe in true love?
To me, the definition of true love is not forever love. If your love for a particular person at a particular time is true, eternal or not, it is true love. And therefore, I do believe in true love.

7. What do you want the most from your lover/admirer?
Their faithfulness and love.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Invest in fast growing estates, beautify my teeth and get a professional hair-do.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
No. I'm just too shy.

10. What would you like to change about your current life?
I just wish that Malaysia's education would change, and this will change everybody's lives, not only mine.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
As stated above, faithfulness and love, preferably not too overweight/underweight. I want a healthy guy! No smoking or heavy drinking either.

12. Which type of person you do hate the most?
Attention seekers and people who think they're too clever.

13. What is your ambition?
Mass advertiser, or anything that has to do with marketing.

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
I'd rather they tell me my about faults to me personally, or just shut up and quit spreading damaging rumours.

15. What do you think is the most important in your life?
Happiness.

16. Are you a shopaholic?
Nope, I'm more of a foodaholic.

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would want to change?
My habit of procrastination.

18. What would you do if have an off day?
Probably search for ingenious softwares, learn some programming, and glue onto Facebook.

19. what do you feel like eating now?
Famous Amos chocolate chip cookies, Baskin Robbin's Chocolate Mousse Royale ice-cream, dark chocolate bars, American Chocolate cake... Yes, I'm a chocoholic too.

20. How do you feel now?
Sleepy! I eat and I sleep and I call that heaven.



Ain't tagging no one. Do the tag and pass it on if you want :)

~ Angelina